Give Me Grace!
Today I emailed friends for prayer. Please understand it is not like me to seek help or to be weak. I have been alone for years now, and know what it is like to go through hard times and mountain tops, along with other seasons of the Christian life, including poverty..which I am still in! However, the past few weeks have been much more different than anything I've ever experienced and it is almost overwhelming, especially right now. Let me put it this way, nothing seems right, and nothing is fulfilling or satisfying. Not even my morning coffee. You know those little things you cherish without recognizing that are part of your routine and daily fulfillment in life? Or how about the things you do look foward to during the day? Nothing, and I mean nothing is satisfying me, and the big things are annoying me, like my job. So I took tomorrow off. I am fearful I could get upset and do something stupid like quit. That is how strange things are right now. Anyway, back to the asking for prayer. My friends are wonderful and of course respond with encouraging words and promises of prayer. I love my friends. But you know what I realize more than anything? The only thing they can do is pray and call on Jesus. There is no one right now that can help me but Jesus. No one......and nothing. Not even 5 million dollars would help me right now because what I am in need of is Grace, more Grace.....something money can't buy, something no one has but Jesus. I need a big application of it right to my heart! I need a heart change because something is wrong inside....... So I looked up some verses on grace, and of course it is used in different ways, and I found out it is used 170 times in the bible. Paul used it all the time, and needed it all the time! Me too! Guess which verse I picked out? 2 Corinthians 12:9 And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Well, I am pretty weak right now. A place us strong willed women from the 70's were taught to never be. And it would be wonderful to have God lift me up to a place I've never been, something no one, or nothing in this world can do but Him...... Give me Grace, more Grace.