Day 16 -109 Babies Saved!!
This morning I was scheduled to pray between 11-1 with Beth and Carol, two wonderful friends of mine. By the time 10:00 rolled around, unexpected circumstances had occurred and they were unable to go. It didn't bother me, and I told them not to worry, because God had a plan, He always has a plan. Upon arrival at the abortion clinic, Jessica was pulling up and we were able to greet and then settle into prayer. After a short time we began to share our previous day's experiences, which were extremely similar. We both had been trying to open the eyes of our African American friends to see how abortion is destroying their race, because it is minorities having the most abortions. Both of us had used the same information we knew and were just very heartbroken over their inability to see the truth of abortion. Well, that was the beginning of one very serious subject on the ability to see truth. In fact, let's stop right here. Right now, I would like everyone to pause and think about what gave you the desire to go pray at the abortion clinic. Or what it was that opened your eyes to see this issue. Did you on your own wake up one day and go "well today, I have decided to step into the pro life battle?" Or were you like me and Adrian, my prayer warrior friend from SAS, and began to take notice of the abortion issue because of the elections? What did God use, my friends, to open your eyes to the truth? Because six months ago, if you had said I would be praying at an abortion clinic in March, it would have been hilarious to me. I would of said you were crazy. That was the last place I would ever desire in my heart to do a ministry. So, what happened to my heart, friends? Am I smarter than other people that don't see the truth? Am I wiser? More righteous? Am I more determined to see the truth? Kinder? Have more compassion for others? Or could it be that if God had not intervened with the Holy Spirit to open my eyes to the truth of abortion, that I would still be ignoring the entire issue today. Jeremiah 17:9 says "The heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately wicked, Who can understand it?" In all honesty, I will have to raise my hand and say "that would be me Lord." Without the Holy Spirt to open my eyes and show me the truth, I would still be hiding my own abortions and ignoring the entire issue. But the good news is, as my friend Adrian says, the Lord is calling out people to fight this huge battle, and we can stand and pray, and pray, and pray, for those who cannot see......yet. One last thing. I have found that praying at the abortion clinic is changing me more than anything else. As I was praying the other day, the Lord seemed to question my motives for being there. I began to go through a list. Lord, I am here because of the babies... Lord, I am here because of what it does to the mothers..... Lord, I am here because it is destroying all of us........... Lord, I am here because it is destruction................ Lord, I am here because it goes against you, the Creator of Life................. Lord, I am here because you are God...................... Lord, I am here because you called me and showed me the truth.......................... Lord, I am here because you want me to be here and put that desire in my heart...........................................oh my gosh............. Lord, oh Lord, I am here, because deep down, where you showed me how beautiful you are, I fell in love with you Lord, because you love me. I am here Lord, because I love you..... I love you! Even if no woman changes her mind, even if I am laughed at and riduculed... even if no one understands and nothing in the abortion movement changes, but gets worse, I will still be standing right here.....because I love you God, and I know how good you are.........and that my friends, is why I pray at the abortion clinic....how about you?